hello :D

Again , i find mr .blog today . tonight is so damn boring , but luckily still got my friends chat with me . if not i'm gonna boring to hell :P haha . but soon or later im gonna off to bed , because tomorrow i still have to work at my aunt's factory with my friend , Jeffrey . tomorrow i will be Panda Eugene :) haha . 3 minutes more and i'm gonna become piggy already :) wait the time .

today , i was going parade with my bro , wei J .

too big -.-

we went there and watch movie , we watch SKYLINE

this movie was so interesting , the alien ship was so fucking big . -.-

big right ? so terrible .

well nothing i can write anymore here . haha :)

non - tittle :)

i'm tired dude . is almost 5 o' clock now. what the hell am i doing here ? sitting alone infront of the computer and chatting with someone who still online , and im saying hi to Mr . blog now . haha . damn boringg weyy . -.- nothing to do in this boring night . oops ! it should be morning .

i just finished viewing someone's blog just now , his blog was so nice and unique . his english was good , i admire . :) compare to myself , my english was totally sucks . shit . sigh , dont care it so much . cause he was studying in Australia now , that's why his english was good. :)

well , i have to off to bed now . it's 5.03 o'clock . good morning everybody , and say bye to me , eugene . :) bye and enjoy yourself . thank you :)

我等你 ♥

我等你

因为我忘不了

我等你

因为我喜欢上了你

我等你

因为我满脑子全是你

我等你

因为你让我心痛过

我等你

因为我舍不得放下你

我等你

因为你让我的生活充满了阳光

我等你

因为你是第一个我最想等的人

我等你

因为你需要时间去奋斗

我等你

因为我不想你为难

我等你

因为你的情绪可以左右我

我等你

因为我已经习惯了听你的话

我等你

因为我的心让我去等

我等你

因为我们有约定

我等你

因为我从不认为你在耍我

我等你

因为我从没把你跟坏人画等号

我等你

因为只有你值得我去爱

我等你

因为你不想伤害我

我等你

因为有我们的回忆

我等你

因为我很傻

我等你

因为我不想逃避我的心

我等你

因为我有等你的权利

我不等你

因为我发现

你的心根本没有装下我 ..

I.M.Y ♥

现在凌晨3.36分，

我，在这写部落格，

写下我的心情故事．．

我会分享让你们知道．

不想看的话请离开，

没有人逼你看．

当时间一踏上凌晨，

整个夜晚就只剩我一人，

独自在那听歌，写部落格．

不知为什么，

总觉得今天的夜晚

特别的宁静，特别的孤寂．．．

仿佛就只剩我一人．

这夜晚让我回想起我与她关于以前的事．

回想起我们聊天的时候，

回想起我们一起玩游戏的时候，

回想起我们相处的时候，

那时候的我真的傻得可爱 *[ 别呕丫]

就一直找她聊天，玩游戏 ．

那时我们可是很谈得来地说，哈哈~

一天．．．

不知怎么了，我们竟然吵架了．

我还笨笨的跟她搏过，

还真是笨蛋！

换成现在的我，

我会立刻哄会她，别让她不高兴．

因为，

我说过

虽然我不能够给你什么，但只要你倘开你的心来接受我的话，我会让你做最快乐，最幸福的女生。

但，现在的我都不知能不能够做得到．．

我坚信自己能做得到的．．嘻嘻~ :)

那时，

我们为了一些小事而吵起来．

我们彼此都在谩骂对方，连粗语都派上场了．

芷琼：“ 从今天开始，我失去一个好朋友了．”

斯竣：“ 是我错，你不当我是朋友，那我们就做陌生人吧．．．”

芷琼：“ 其实，　我当你是我好朋友，不过你不喜欢，那我们就做陌生人好了．”

斯竣：“ 你说其实你当我是朋友，不过在现实就不是，是吗？”

芷琼：“ 不是。从我们认识那天，我就当你是我朋友了．”

斯竣：“ 那么．．．”

芷琼：“ 没那么．你说做陌生人较好，没关系，我尊重你．”

斯竣：“ 我说，如果你不当我是朋友，你可选择做陌生人．”

芷琼：“ 我没说过那．”

斯竣：“ 我说如果罢了．．．”

芷琼：“ 陌生人已从你口中说出了，那成为陌生人是最好的方法，再见．．．”

斯竣：“ 你要这样，我无话可说．再见，保重．”

芷琼：“ 再见，这是你的选择．”

斯竣：“ 那不是我的选择．”

芷琼：“ 我是真的当你是我的朋友，但你不相信我，没关系，我不爱强逼别人的．．”

斯竣：“ 你可选择继续当朋友或者成为陌生人．．．我哪有不相信你丫？”

芷琼：“ 可是如果我选择继续，你完全不相信我．”

斯竣：“ 噢。你看起来不开心，我帮到你吗？”

芷琼：“ 我失去一个好朋友了，你可以买回他吗？”

斯竣：“ 你．．在说着我吗？”

芷琼：“ 没了，你也不会明白。我不希望失去你．”

斯竣：“ 为什么？”

芷琼：“ 不知道，我的心告诉我的．．”

斯竣：“ 那么，现在就告诉你的心和你自己，你不会再失去这个朋友了．雷芷琼．”

芷琼：“ 真的？Yeah ! Yeah ! Yeah ! yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !

斯竣：“ 对不起，我错了，我误会你了．．．”

芷琼：“ 开心！:D ”

斯竣：“ 对不起．”

芷琼：“ 不不不．．”

斯竣：“ 对不起．”

芷琼：“ 是我错．”

斯竣：“ 对不起．”

芷琼：“ 对不起．”

芷琼：“ YEAH !!! 高兴死我了～ ”

斯竣：“ 你为什么说对不起？你没做错什么．

芷琼：“ Haizzzzzz .　刚才对你说粗语，对不起对不起..”

斯竣：“ 我和你一样，我也不想失去你 . :( ”

芷琼：“ 别哭别哭，sek fan sek fan . ”

斯竣：“ enen :)) ”

芷琼：“ blerrr ;p 哈哈哈~”

斯竣：“ 对不起哦，误会你了. ”

芷琼：“ 答应我，做好朋友 ，好吗？我也是 ”

斯竣：“ 我们？”

芷琼：“ 别再吵架了，不可以恶？”

斯竣：“ 好的好的，你也是哦 .. ”

芷琼：“ 是是 .. ^^ 开心了. ”

斯竣：“ 呵呵 .. ^^ ”

芷琼：“ 我们两个都有错丫 . ”

斯竣：“ 是咯 . ”

芷琼：“ 哈哈 . 刚才你对我说粗语 ，我觉得很伤心 . ”

斯竣：“ 对不起，对不起，对不起，对不起，对不起，对不起，对不起 ... ”

芷琼：“ 没有啦，都已过去了，没关系 . ”

斯竣：“ 对不起，我连想都没想就这样说你，有伤害到你吗？”

芷琼：“ 我也是啦，这样说你 . 没有啦 ... ”

斯竣：“ 那就好 . ^^ ”

芷琼：“ 我也有伤害到你的 . ^^ ”

斯竣：“ 我很怕会伤害到你丫. 哈哈~ ”

芷琼：“ 哈哈~

很傻对吧？哈哈哈哈！

但我很庆幸我们能够这样和好，

呵呵~

超高兴的说~ ^^

:)

x)

;)

:D

;D

哈哈哈哈哈！

我 sot 了. xD

但是..

现在的我，

却不知怎么微笑了..

虽然表面上的我看起来开开心心的，

但私底下我却很不开心 .

我的微笑大多数都是伪装的，

真真的快乐，

都是出现在我的兄弟们 .

不过有时会露出一丝悲意 .

我需要人来疼爱 ...

我很想你 .

你知道吗 ? 你不知道 ...

恨不得你现在就马上出现在我眼前..

让我抱紧你 ,

让我亲口对着你说 [ 我很爱你，也很想你 ]

但我知道这是不可能的事 ..

就让我躲在一旁孤独地哭泣吧 ..

我很累了，

很累去等你，爱你 ..

虽然已精疲力尽了，

但我还是会继续的等你 .

不知为什么，

虽然我知道你不可能会爱上我，

但我还是傻傻地在等下去 .

为什么？

我的心告诉我的，

要知道的话，

去问我的心吧 ...

夜已深了，而我刚好完成这故事，

偶要去找周公了哟，

拜拜~

Let go ? give up ?

ℓσу xxx xxx ♥

i miss you

i need you now

you will not know what i'm writing here ,

unless you view my blog and see .

haha ~

it has been 351 days since 21 /11 /2009 .

i still remember the date that we get to know each other .

but you don't know .

that day is such a important day to me .

don't ask why . no reason .

she was very friendly to me that time ,

i miss that moment .

that time i just like a sorzaii ,

always ask her ' what if i have a crush on you ? '

hahaha~

then she keep on answered ' you won't have a crush on me gea larr . '

she listed the reason somemore ,

1. me very yeong shui .

2. me very 8 .

3. you want find also find like ycy that type larr .

so cute of you , ℓσу ¢нι кєηg ♥

and i love that .

i replied that i don't care the reason 2 and 3 .

suddenly she asked me something that shocked me .

she asked me .

you want me love you ?

i want .

wait . i asking you seriously

not joking .

really one .

why you like that one ?

but i not dare to ask you to love me .

i just chat with you something today

then you jau love me ?

i don't think this is real .

you are in the relationship now ,

i not dare .

when chat with you ,

i feel happy .

this is not really LIKE

actually i can't chat with boys ,

because i try jor many times .

last time ,

kaechyn also give me the same answer .

so i dont know why i can't friendly to boys .

but i sure that you just joking .

i surely you will reject me too .

i know dy .

nevermind .

sorry all .

forgive me .

really sorry .

nevermind .

:D

but you not yet meet me before ,

how should you believe me ?

i know you are playing me larr , right ?

nope .

i din't play you

my parents come back dy .

chat tomorrow .

okay .

okay miss you .

bb

muacks .

LOL

^^

heyy ...

this is just a small part of our conversation .

hahaha .

after that day ,

we seems like no topic to chat dy .

both of us also speechless .

i wondering ..

what if i din't confess my love to her that time ?

will her still like last time ?

i don't know .

it's too late dy .

sighh .

after that day ,

she seems like cold to me dy ,

don't even want to choi me also ,

reply my message also darn fuhin .

Wei J told me that she do so cause after rejecting me ,

she feels ' gam gai '

gam gai for what ?

sighh

i don't care dy .

as she like .

until last month .

i receive a lot of bad news .

my friend ask her why she doesn't want to accept me ?

she answered that xxxxxx mm leng zai.

i cry the whole night after receiving this .

she post out a status .

Even how much you sacrifice , i will never fall in love with you .

again , i cried the whole night .

last , she told wei j and told me not to love her anymore .

if not FAN MIN .

again .

i cried the 3rd time .

but i din't cry in the night .

i know i should let her go .

but my heart was telling me that i should let go her but not give up on her .

so until now i still waiting .

wait and wait and wait .

351 days dy .

sighh .

seems like i'm talking rubbish here .

hahaha ~

All i wanna tell you that all the deaths i could endure .

without you , i live no more .

you are important to me .

ι ♥ уσυ

written by :

Tse Jun (:

[ 2010 /11 / 6 , saturday , 4.00 a.m ]

i miss you ):

i miss you,

i darn miss you

i miss you seriously

imma missing you all the time.

you were in my brain dy.

i can't stop thinking about you.

everytime when i pick up my phone and send a message to her.

but she did not reply me.

i wondering what happened between us dy.

is that she lose interest on me dy ??

or she is chatting happily with his Bryan ??

i don't know.

sighh.

what should i do ?

call her ??

later yao scare no topic chat.

text her ??

no response at all.

why just can't you reply me and let me know what's your feeling and condition right now.

i wanna know.

3 days without your message dy,

am i forgotten by you??

I don't know.

my phone left no much credit right now.

maybe after PMR only reload.

PMR is just around the corner,

just left 15 days.

i feel tension. ~~

actually i do care about you, but you say i'm not.

maybe you can't feel it anymore.

I confess my love to you on 9th of Jun 2010, at 4 some thing.

i love you.

but we seems can't be together.

sighh.

What if we din't meet,

you won't be suffer nowadays ??

What if we din't fall in love with each other,

then we won't fan this fan that ??

but if we ever meet again,

that's the biggest present for me dy.

Heeee (:

suen larr,

don't think too much larr.

Now just focus on study and prepare for PMR.

you too, keep it up in your study.

Wish you get a good result in your SPM.

good luck (:

Byeee,

take care.

I Miss you hella muchie ^_^

(copy from you one)

hehehe~~~

normal dayyy (:

today as usual,

no school today.

But i woke up at 11 something almost 12.

wuwuuwwu~~

LATE~~~~ T.T

fine.

went to bath after wake up.

text with her a while and then had lunch with my aunt.

after finished,

i texted her whether she is busy a not.

but she replied 'i need to work k, can't always reply you'

i just wanna knew when she off only,

suen jor.

i don't disturb her then.

then i went to downstairs to do my revision.

PMR is around the corner,

if i don't study now

i could die that time. LOL!

but,

do har do har revision.

i felt a bit sleepy.

then i went upstairs and took a short nap.

dim ji,

sleep har sleep har yao sleep jor 1 hour.

denggg. ==

no time to do revision dy.

i quickly rush to downstairs and start to do again.

WTH !! darn tired >.<

SHAWNEE CHANG SUE WERN,

okayyy, i knew i lie to youu

i blocked you

i blocked you cause i very angry and jealous that time,

but after you said :

For me, there's only one and only bie in my heart. And that's you. ♥ take care. Mwuahh

you melt my heart and i doesn't felt angry and jealous anymore.

i viewed your blog just now,

'if he ever deleted me from his friend list again then i sure block back him in return!'

If i really deleted you from my friend list again,

i sure you gonna block back me and don't choi me.

aihhhsss.

shawnee, today i just texted with you a while.

i know you are busy working that time,

so i didn't disturb you.

but after you off, you din find me back.

sighh.

suen ba.

i think you are busy of some stuff or phone no credit.

i dont know.

i do miss you,

but i don't know how to concern about you dy.

Am i Changed ??

today, i might be quite late to sleep

cause i had to wait my parents came back.

at the same time,

she also not yet sleep.

i wanna accompany her,

but she said she nowadays at night like to be alone.

sigh, can't pui her also.

nevermind,

imma blogging right now.

'Babyy, i know i'm kinda ignorant at certain time,

but i hope you don't mind

i love you from the endless pit of my heart

hees =) i just jotting something meaningfull here

oh my goshh, i miss you like hell.

what should i do?

In love,

there is always one who kisses and one who offers the cheek.

So dear, i love you that with you,

All deaths i could endure.

without you,

i live no more.'

still remember this ??

i guess you forget this already.

but i still remember.

but what i remember,

it's not important to you already.

sighhh..

when i trying to care or concern about you,

you are ignoring me.

when i trying to chat happily with you,

you replied me unhappily.

you don't know what you are already.

sighh.

it seems our distance had become longer and longer already.

what should i do ??

Am i changed ??

take care.

i do love you always.

happened ?

Today I went parade with my aunt and my uncle.

go there because wanna meet her.

Long time din't see her jor,

i darn miss her ):

yeahh, she is shawnee.

three days din't text her already,

although my kai mui accompany me,

but i still felt lonely and sad.

without her

eugene doink really can't survive. lol.

i went to 'why why' bookstore just now,

just to meet her.

but,

i din't call her.

i scare when i saw her,

i will cry and don't know what to say.

sorry for not calling you, shawnee.

sorry ):

after she leave,

i notice that i miss a chance to saw her.

I quickly rushed to see her.

but, it's too late..

she texted me and said

' NO FATE'

......

is too late. sigh...

shawnee says

'My heart can only love one people,

but i won't tie myself just to one relation

cause i think that it's not worth.

i won't be too serious in relationship already'

sounds you not so care about it already.

you don't know how to care me already since i become yang shan's

secret teller.

i told you,

we are nothing.

she just like to play.

I know you dislike her for some reason.

we are just normal friends,

no other relations.

do trust me.

you said you jealous but you didn't complaint.

you viewed my blog,

your heart breaks but won't tell me.

why ??

i don't want you suffer.
i rather help you get out from the pain.

i don't care anything.

' I knew i shouldn't appear in your life since last time'

this message is you send to me one.

why say so ??

you are wrong !

if you didn't appear in my life,

my life would be meaningless.

i know it's hurt but i still can resist.

i do care about you.

i love you, shawnee. ♥

i felt happy when i'm be with you